The REAL me .

My friendship for him will always be treasured ,
But he is just like any other guy.
He will minipulate me and make me think he cares , but he really doesnt give a Sh*t
Im not gonna fall for another guy who will play with my emotions .
Im done with those kind of guys , Im looking for someone who will actually care and take care of me. People think Im the same Mandi I used to be , But Im not .
Im NOT the same . I refuse to get hurt again , I know Im too young to say Im heartbroken .
And Im not saying that I am , Im saying that Im hurting inside .
I dont show it but I am .
People dont see it but Im hurting inside .
Thats why I act like I dont care , its cause I dont want people to know .
I seem like Im okay , but the truth is , Im not .
Im just trying to do whats best for me .
I dont want people to know because Im just not an open person and I dont like people knowing how I feel . I dont know why Im like this , but its just the way I am .
Im not the happy person I once was . I tell people to just be happy and live their lives as if nothing is wrong , but I cant take my own advice .
I keep lying to myself and telling myself Im okay , but Im not.............
If you read this , Please dont confront me about it .