Ughh, i totally hate boys right now :/
they just hurt you...or maybe its me ??
Blah! idk what to do,, things right now are just too effing complicated..
i havent blogged in a LONG time so this one might be kinda long....or not (;
But anyways back on topic..
OMG i really like **** but there was just too much drama and too many rumors.
i couldnt handle it and i was too scared of getting hurt.
Now Tyvon and Dominic wanna fight him.
i dont want them to fight, theres no point of it..(but it would be a good fight to watch)Lol,, idk what to do and i wanna get back with him but then i dont because he has a really bad reputation and everyone is gonna be mad at me if i do get back with him..their gonna make me choose between him and them.
WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE SO EFFING COMPLICATED?!?!?!?!?!
Everything was perfect until i started liking him,,
now everything went down the drain !
Blah !!!!! i dont like this at all
Help Me ?!?!?!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
im trying .
im trying to let go,
im trying to forget,
im trying , i really am.
if im trying then why am i not succeeding ?
its a scary feeling. ive never been so scared to let go of someone in my life.
Why is that ? im just soo confused . Why is it so hard for me ?
Whats wrong with me ? i cant fall for him , he is just like any other guy ive dated.
im NOT getting hurt again. i refuse to. im not falling for someone who doest care.
From now on ima just ignore him and make him let me go first, it will hurt me but i know its for best.....maybe.
idk, :/
Help Me ?
im trying to forget,
im trying , i really am.
if im trying then why am i not succeeding ?
its a scary feeling. ive never been so scared to let go of someone in my life.
Why is that ? im just soo confused . Why is it so hard for me ?
Whats wrong with me ? i cant fall for him , he is just like any other guy ive dated.
im NOT getting hurt again. i refuse to. im not falling for someone who doest care.
From now on ima just ignore him and make him let me go first, it will hurt me but i know its for best.....maybe.
idk, :/
Help Me ?
Sunday, January 31, 2010
im sickk of Him !!!!!
O M G ! He is just soo annoying !
He just cant stand to see him happy , He has to make my life a living Hell !
He was cool in the beginning . Now he is just GETTING ON MY NERVES !
Im soo sick of him always calling my stupid and a air head and all those other fucking names , even though he's just kidding it still hurts me. Im just done with him , I really dont care anymore . Ive been dealing with it for 2 years now and Im not doing it anymore. There's is only soo much I can handle . He thinks he knows EVERYTHING ! I swear its going to come back to him and bite him in the BUTT !
And I will laugh , Im not usually this mean but he has pushed me TOO FAR !
UGHHHH ! >:(
I am soo mad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He just cant stand to see him happy , He has to make my life a living Hell !
He was cool in the beginning . Now he is just GETTING ON MY NERVES !
Im soo sick of him always calling my stupid and a air head and all those other fucking names , even though he's just kidding it still hurts me. Im just done with him , I really dont care anymore . Ive been dealing with it for 2 years now and Im not doing it anymore. There's is only soo much I can handle . He thinks he knows EVERYTHING ! I swear its going to come back to him and bite him in the BUTT !
And I will laugh , Im not usually this mean but he has pushed me TOO FAR !
UGHHHH ! >:(
I am soo mad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Keisha !!!!!
So , Kiesha was bugging my today about me not mentioning her in any of my blogs and having most of my blogs dedicated to a certain boy . So Ima write a whole blog about Keisha :)
Well , where do I start ? This chick right hear has been through thick and thin with me.
And she is the best cousin I could ever ask for. She is always there for me when I need her,
She is just AWESOME ! I waited up until 2 o'clock in the morning for her and I will do it again if I have to. I love this girl to death and I will do anything for her. She is my backbone , without her I couldn't stand . When I read the blog she wrote about me , I cried . But they were tears of joy :)
I love you BabyGirl ! And NOBODY will EVER change that .
You impacted my life in soo many ways and you will always have that special spot in my heart . JUST FOR YOU ! <3 You are my Guardian Angel , You help guide me down the paths that I dont wanna go down . You help me know right from wrong . You are the one that I can go to when Im in need or when Im mad and I need to vent my anger on someone . You help me in life to make the right decisions. You are one of my biggest Role Models ! I can be in the WORST mood EVER and you would be able to cheer me up , not many people can do that . Lmao :D
You help me when I come home nagging about my problems , and you ACTUALLY listen .
I know I can trust you with my secrets and it sucks that I dont get to see you as much as I used to . If I didnt get to see you at least once a week I think I would go crazy ! Lol :D
Even though you can get on my nerves sometimes , You will always be my #1 Bestfriend.
I Love You !!!!!!! <3 :)
Well , where do I start ? This chick right hear has been through thick and thin with me.
And she is the best cousin I could ever ask for. She is always there for me when I need her,
She is just AWESOME ! I waited up until 2 o'clock in the morning for her and I will do it again if I have to. I love this girl to death and I will do anything for her. She is my backbone , without her I couldn't stand . When I read the blog she wrote about me , I cried . But they were tears of joy :)
I love you BabyGirl ! And NOBODY will EVER change that .
You impacted my life in soo many ways and you will always have that special spot in my heart . JUST FOR YOU ! <3 You are my Guardian Angel , You help guide me down the paths that I dont wanna go down . You help me know right from wrong . You are the one that I can go to when Im in need or when Im mad and I need to vent my anger on someone . You help me in life to make the right decisions. You are one of my biggest Role Models ! I can be in the WORST mood EVER and you would be able to cheer me up , not many people can do that . Lmao :D
You help me when I come home nagging about my problems , and you ACTUALLY listen .
I know I can trust you with my secrets and it sucks that I dont get to see you as much as I used to . If I didnt get to see you at least once a week I think I would go crazy ! Lol :D
Even though you can get on my nerves sometimes , You will always be my #1 Bestfriend.
I Love You !!!!!!! <3 :)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Proud Of Myself ! :)
I'm so proud of myself ,
I realized that I don't like him . He is just a really good friend :)
So , No more being confused and sad anymore !
Ima be happy and move on with my life .
I'm not looking back , Ima keep moving forward .
Life is a one way road , Once a day is over you cant go back .
Its over and DONE ! Lol ,
Well , I'm looking for something . But i don't know what that something is .
I realized alot yesterday and now I finally understand .
Yeah , I keep saying I'm not looking back anymore and I always go back on my word .
But not anymore ! :)
I'm sticking to my word and MOVING ON !!!!!
So , Ive been Really Happy all this week . And its really weird , But I like it .
Ohh well , Ima just keep doing my thing and Live Life To The FULLEST ! :)<3
I realized that I don't like him . He is just a really good friend :)
So , No more being confused and sad anymore !
Ima be happy and move on with my life .
I'm not looking back , Ima keep moving forward .
Life is a one way road , Once a day is over you cant go back .
Its over and DONE ! Lol ,
Well , I'm looking for something . But i don't know what that something is .
I realized alot yesterday and now I finally understand .
Yeah , I keep saying I'm not looking back anymore and I always go back on my word .
But not anymore ! :)
I'm sticking to my word and MOVING ON !!!!!
So , Ive been Really Happy all this week . And its really weird , But I like it .
Ohh well , Ima just keep doing my thing and Live Life To The FULLEST ! :)<3
Saturday, January 16, 2010
The REAL me .
My friendship for him will always be treasured ,
But he is just like any other guy.
He will minipulate me and make me think he cares , but he really doesnt give a Sh*t
Im not gonna fall for another guy who will play with my emotions .
Im done with those kind of guys , Im looking for someone who will actually care and take care of me. People think Im the same Mandi I used to be , But Im not .
Im NOT the same . I refuse to get hurt again , I know Im too young to say Im heartbroken .
And Im not saying that I am , Im saying that Im hurting inside .
I dont show it but I am .
People dont see it but Im hurting inside .
Thats why I act like I dont care , its cause I dont want people to know .
I seem like Im okay , but the truth is , Im not .
Im just trying to do whats best for me .
I dont want people to know because Im just not an open person and I dont like people knowing how I feel . I dont know why Im like this , but its just the way I am .
Im not the happy person I once was . I tell people to just be happy and live their lives as if nothing is wrong , but I cant take my own advice .
I keep lying to myself and telling myself Im okay , but Im not.............
If you read this , Please dont confront me about it .
But he is just like any other guy.
He will minipulate me and make me think he cares , but he really doesnt give a Sh*t
Im not gonna fall for another guy who will play with my emotions .
Im done with those kind of guys , Im looking for someone who will actually care and take care of me. People think Im the same Mandi I used to be , But Im not .
Im NOT the same . I refuse to get hurt again , I know Im too young to say Im heartbroken .
And Im not saying that I am , Im saying that Im hurting inside .
I dont show it but I am .
People dont see it but Im hurting inside .
Thats why I act like I dont care , its cause I dont want people to know .
I seem like Im okay , but the truth is , Im not .
Im just trying to do whats best for me .
I dont want people to know because Im just not an open person and I dont like people knowing how I feel . I dont know why Im like this , but its just the way I am .
Im not the happy person I once was . I tell people to just be happy and live their lives as if nothing is wrong , but I cant take my own advice .
I keep lying to myself and telling myself Im okay , but Im not.............
If you read this , Please dont confront me about it .
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Why Him ?
I never thought I'd ever like him ,
And its really weird . It just doesnt make any sense to me .
I just dont understand .
I wanna be able to let him know how I feel and just get it over with ,
But I dont like rejection and Im scared .
At least I have his friendship , Thats good enough for me...........Right ?
And its really weird . It just doesnt make any sense to me .
I just dont understand .
I wanna be able to let him know how I feel and just get it over with ,
But I dont like rejection and Im scared .
At least I have his friendship , Thats good enough for me...........Right ?
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